Apathy

The fires of pain burn deep, deep inside the soul.  One can feel the pain compressing on itself, forming its own bitter shield.  "Baptism by fire" takes on a whole new meaning.  Heavy music can scratch the itch... Dull the pain... But down that road lies apathy.

The shield of apathy is always a temptation, for after using it once it will always be on hand.  It feels good not to feel.  It feels too good.  You get comfortable.  You don't let go.  Eventually the disconnect becomes normal, and you lose the ability to feel.  Regaining emotions is a difficult process, because you forgot how they work and how to make them happen.  You spend years as a robot.

I reject the apathy.  I embrace the burning pain.  Agony is beautiful.